
Well today is my birthday and what better to think on than inadequacy? That might be humorous to some but think about this… when in your life are you more inadequate than when you are a newborn child? You have more needs at that period, than any other time of your life. In fact with out your own personal slave there is a good chance you would die! Thank you Mom!!! Anyway…. Inadequacy is something that from our time of birth, as humans, we all struggle with.
A couple nights ago I was talking with my good friend Dan about our first years in college, and the topic of weakness came up. He was sharing with me his fears, and how living on a very anti-Christian campus has affected his spiritual life. I was telling him how weak I felt on my floor, and how I wished I could have done more this year. We talked about how we felt insignificant, and it dawned on me that in times of our weakness we have two choices. We can either retreat within our flesh in a feeble attempt at rescuing ourselves… or we can step out in faith that God has more power than us, and will deliver us in mighty ways. See it is at our weakest moment that God is strongest.
2 Corinthians 12:9
But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
This is my favorite verse, for many reasons, but the foremost being that I am an incredibly weak person. I also have my strengths, but to know that when I am feeling most inadequate Christ’s power is at rest upon me absolutely blows my mind!
It is for this reason the proud cannot enter the throne room of God. Because if we gain in the area of our inadequacy then we immediately have something to lose; blocking us from being fully used by God. When we are called sons of God it is because we may enter the throne room with boldness, but also walking in humility like a child. In the same way we are born, we come to Christ…Beautiful
Most of my conversation with Dan was on the areas of struggle in our lives, but Dan is doing some amazing things at his college! His friends are asking him eternal questions, and even though Dan feels weak and suppressed at times God is working through his weakness to reach others! He is amazing and a man of God!
I want to end with a story.
Around three months ago I was at the Way (a college ministry of Solid Rock Church). I was having a bad day, and feeling empty. I was ready to listen to a message that would pour into me, and encourage me in my walk with the Lord. I found my seat and waited for the music to start, when a man smelling of weed taped me on the shoulder and gruffly said, “ so how does this @$#% work?” By the grace of God I said as lovingly as I could, “ well we sing, and then John Mark will preach, then after he talks we will sing some more, and then we all eat together. It’s all pretty awesome, really!” He grunted and sat back in his seat as I turned around. I never though much of the encounter until last Friday night… After an awesome message, the room was filled with praise in tribute to how great our God is. I was enveloped in the moment (as I often am at the way) and as I looked to my left I saw that same man in the front row praising God, and singing to How Great HE is. I could not help but cry. Because, see in one of my weak, and selfish moments God allowed me to be apart of that man’s journey into Christ’s sea of Life… Awesome.